Tag: existential

• Between the Rain and the Ache

  I woke with a weight in my chest,
  a quiet, pressing ache.

  I stared at the skylight,
  watched raindrops gather
  before falling—
  soft taps against the glass
  like questions
  I didn’t want to answer.

  I did not move.

  Maybe it was the restless night,
  the turning, the searching
  for a place to land—
  or maybe
  I was held still
  by something heavier than sleep.

  Pain has a way of doing that—
  not loud, not urgent,
  just enough
  to keep you where you are.

  What is the meaning of life
  when it feels like this?

  I thought I knew once.
  Thought if I held things carefully,
  lived them gently,
  life would unfold
  into something I could understand.

  But life shifts—
  quietly, without warning—
  placing new weight into your hands—
  asking,
  can you carry this too?

  I have known heartbreak—
  the kind that leaves an empty space,
  like a missing limb
  you learn to live without.

  But this—

  this feels like breaking
  from the inside out.

  What kind of love is this
  that fractures me when you are not around?

  Why does some love ache
  only when it leaves,
  while another
  shakes my whole being,
  as if life loosens its grip without you?

  I lie here,
  between the rain
  and the heaviness in my chest,
  listening—

  Not for answers,
  but for something softer,
  something that might say

  you don’t have to understand
  this moment
  to survive it.

  And so I stay—
  held between
  what hurts
  and what falls—

  waiting
  for one of them
  to let go first.

  April 12, 2026

  existential, life, Love, poetry, reflection, writing

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